Dad said: May 5, 2009 1:17 pm PST
I used to have a friend who was a total Scarborough Junky. She dressed in the garb, went both days every weekend, and stayed after hours to party with the people who work there. You couldnâ??t think about Scarborough without thinking about Gail. Sadly, she was murdered in her apartment a few years ago. The murder has never been solved. I considered not going to Scarborough the following year. It was hard, but not as devastating as I had feared. I had to remember that Gail would want me to enjoy this event that always brought her such joy.
Now, I've lost my son, and I'm faced with going to Scarborough Faire again this year, but without Nick. The first time I went to Scarborough, I brought Nick. He was 6 years old at the time. We discovered piratey sea shanties, enjoyed the corny jokes, and learned about glass blowing together. We had so much fun, that we went back every year thereafter.
Part of raising a child is sharing the things that make you happiest. Wonderful things are made more so when you share them with the ones that you love. Unfortunately, the more you love those events with your child, the more difficult it is to face those same events without him. I find that I don't listen to music much anymore, even though it has historically been something that I enjoyed more than almost anything else. Punk, country, jazz, classical, metal, folkâ?¦we enjoyed it all together. Sharing the music with Nick made it even better. Now, it just brings me sadness. The North Texas Irish Festival was not nearly as wonderful this year as it has been in past years. I'm expecting the same of Scarborough.
I feel that this is something I have to fight through. As with Gail, Nicholas would want me to go to Scarborough Faire and try to have fun. He would be disappointed if I did not go on account of him. And so, I shall go. Not only that, but I am one of the parental chaperones for about 200 9th graders.